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[Aug. 31st, 2004|05:45 pm] |
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I’ve definitely never liked a boy as much as I like Alex. Everything he says is perfect. The way he looks is perfect. The way he acts is perfect. Everything involving him is perfect. I wake up every morning, and the first thing I think about is alex. Maybe I loved a boy before, but never ever ever like this. It’s crazy. I’m crazy. The way I feel is crazy. The minute I started talking to him, I liked him. The minute I met him I was fixated. Hes the most amazing guy I’ve ever liked. I don’t like assuming things, because usually I’m wrong but I honestly cannot help it. I feel like this is going to be one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Boys like alex are different, they are something special. I hope this feeling doesn’t end. |
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[Aug. 8th, 2004|11:06 am] |
i think i confuse myself more than imaginable. i think about the same things over and over and it drives me insane. grr. im an optimistic person but sumtimes it sucks.
when u convince yourself something so far could happen if i really try.. but u kno theres no hope unless the other person puts any effort into it. and all u think about is how great it would be if u were just a little closer to him.how great it wold be if u lived realatively closer to that person. how if my mom would freakin drive me out to hunninton.. prefferably llyod neck. i wish that all the guys we met could drive. or at least would TRY to make things happen. its not fun when u pretend it can work.. but u kno it can't.
ahhh i wish it could. |
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[Aug. 5th, 2004|11:28 am] |
never been to the downtown before until last night. crap man. it was the most amazing thing i've ever done in my ENTIRE life. yeah im only 15 so its not like theres much opuurtunity to do anything better... well anyway. the first two bands the turnover and sumthing else.... i cant really remember =). they were ok. but nothing special. no one moved around or anything. for teh first two bands we all jus stood there. before alexisonfire came on, we started talking to some guy adam. he's goign to kennedy next year which means he was a grade younger than us. well anyway he was ust talkign with us about alexisonfire and he had our back for the rest of the night. whenever he saw us he made sure we were ok. the mosh was a bit insane. when alexisonfire came on.. i knew i'd be dead. i was holding on to elenis hand.. but eventually we just got seperated. good thing i made some friends. rob and grant were my buddies for the night. without them.. crao man i would have been killed. i was like dehydrated in 15 different ways.. and i guess it must have showed because some random guy walked over to me and asked me if i was ok and if i needed anything. from autumn to asjhes was AWESOME. it was the bassists last sow and it was really really sad. but i had the most awesome an amazing time of my life. i cant wait to go back.
So arch your back
And flip your hair
Make eye contact so you know I care |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2004|11:17 am] |
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wow. i hate having 3 younder sisters. honestly.. it sucks ass. Anything is like 987654 million times worse when alyssa is your sister. anything i buy she takes. she uses my razors. its gross. i waste like 5 bucks on razors and she takes as many as she wants. i wanna castrate her. UGHHH i hate her. oh, and don't worry.. things get better. she took my yearbook from Grand and decided to show her friends everything i wrote about everyone in there. it just so happens that one of the girls was mike haslams little sister. i thought he was hott. he is. o it was great. she decided to call her brother and told him what i thought. WTFFFFF!!!!!!!! who does that? right now i fell like im gonna gauge out alyssas eye and feed it to a cow. |
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[Aug. 1st, 2004|05:47 pm] |
Spell your first name back wards]: .einahpets
[The story behind your LJ user name]: It's a get Up kids song
[Are you a lesbian?]: nope... unfortunately
[How old?]: 15
[Where do you live?]:New york
[4 words that sum you up]: sexy, hott, sexy, hott
DESCRIBE YOUR...
[Wallet]: i don't exactly have one.
[Hairbrush]: its silver and perdy
[Toothbrush]: Star Wars. It's sad.. i've never even watched that movie. But princess laya is on my toothbrush. thats always sexy
[Jewelry worn daily]: earring and like 3 necklaces. brcalets when i remember.
[Pillow cover]: stripes.rainbow stripes.
[Blanket]: More rainbow. im a lesbian... i admit it. hehe jk
[Coffee cup]: my dog food bowl
[Sunglasses]: no. never. not a pretty thing
[Underwear]: im nto sure, weird ones with french fries and ice cream and ice skates
[Shoes]: pink and black checkered vans
[Handbag]: either the one i made at party fun or my black and white checkered backpack from some chinese luggage place
[Favorite top]: my striped blue and red H and M shirt
[Favorite pants]: the unoionbay ones i have that i fold up at the bottom
[Cologne/Perfume]: Blue by ralph lauren uh huh sexy sexy
[CD in stereo right now]: UnderOATH
[Tattoos]:everywhere
[Piercings]: nipples//clit hehe jk
[What you are wearing now]: jeans, and a white shirt and yellow socks
[Hair]: red and short and hott and sexy
[makeup]: Lip gloss and eyeliner
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[In my mouth]: gum.. orbit gum
[In my head]: uhhh. nothing?
[Wishing]: for a pony ( please)
[After this]: sleeping
[Talking to]: kyle and elenlen
[Eating:]: . i just finsihed eating dinner... meatballs
[Fetishes]: i dont excatly know what that means
[Person you wish you could see right now]: ally bell and her sexy bod
[Is next to you]: a plastic cat
[Some of your favorite movies]: Donnie Darko, a walk to remember, grind
[Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months]: hangin with the sexy men.. ya kno all thosee
[The last thing you ate?]: meatballs
[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]: crickets
[Do you like candles]: uh huh. especially when i have the ability to light ally on fire
[Do you like hot wax]: yes all over my body prefferably
[Do you like incense]: im not sure never tried
[Do you like the taste of blood]: only on thursdays
[Do you believe in love]: do u belive in magic?
[Do you believe in soul mates]: no thats crap
[Do you believe in love at first sight]: still no
[Do you believe in Heaven]: nope
[Do you believe in forgiveness]: i forgive people
[Do you believe in God]: not too much no
[What do you want done with your body when you die]: mummified
[Who is your worst enemy?]: uhhhh
[If you could have any animal for a pet]: a monkey named martinez
[What is the latest you've ever stayed up]: 6 in the morning
[Ever been to Belgium?]: in my spare time
[Can you eat with chopsticks]: no..it turns out bad
[What's your favorite coin?]: wtf...?
[What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to?]:sweeden, austrailia, california, china, guam
[What are some of your favorite pig out foods?] ice cream?[What's something that you wish people would understand?]: that sumtimes the sexiness is too ovebearing
[What's something you wish you could understand better?]: myself
[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: no comment
[What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow?]: massive orgy |
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[Aug. 1st, 2004|04:05 pm] |
Juts got back from another oh so exciting day of work. i dont understand y eleni likes it sooo much. I guess its because i've been working there for a year and its already getting pretty old. so yeah 2day was great. Some little girl named Halli kept running over to me and telling me she loved me. It was adorable i wanted to take her home. not to rape her... u perverts.
My friends went to go see napoleon dynamite again. i reallllly wanted to see it. But my job got in the way and after work i decided to chill out with sarah since i hadn't seen her for a while. She is a crazy girl. she lives in bellmore but travels to conneticut every single weekday to work at a camp there. can we say insane? that girl has some problems. I love her, but to do that they better me paying her well.
Well last night we went to the show at some temple in westbury which happened to be in the middle of absolutely nowhere. on the badn websites we looked at, it said the show started at 4. So of course we get there around 4ish and the temple is abandoned. Theres no one there. AT ALL. so yeah we coudln't leave because we were meeting kyle and jared there. and then they'd be standing here by themselves. so we waited around for a while and finally some guys came. they were in the band bleeding for forgiveness. it was their first show. they were all the nicest bunch of guys. pne of them i think his name was chris was like a chain smoker... and also planned on going to the beach nude with jared. thats cool.
so uhh when the show finally started it really wasn't that great. we were all getting just a teensy bit bored. ( yes tracy u were right. u told us we would get bored.. but i didnt believe u) we decided it was time to hit up the park. when i saw the see saws i went ballistic. so me and caroline ( CAROLINE!) sry i had to.. kyle. decided to go on together. wow.. that thing made my legs move in ways they shouldn't... EVER AGAIN. we found some guys who were drunk out of their asses and they basically stalked us for the rest of the night. josh and brian i think their names were but i kinda forget just a bit. well anyway brian matched very well, and started to break dance. which led to him almost throwing up. he also decided to hump caroline and eleni from the back. that was about the time where we tried to escape them. oh but there were better. Jade showed up with karina and ali yay, and of course jade wanted some beer. Josh offered to buy us some but only if jade went with him. i had a feeling it would lead to some kind of sexual assault therefore i advised her not to go.
the best part of yesterday was when stars hide fire came on. i knew alot of their songs. it was the only time i felt cool for the entire day.
oh wait. i forgot. while at the park we were all dissed out by some 10 year old fucked up/ADD child. he told josh that he looked like the host of queer eye for the straight guy. good times, good times. |
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[Jul. 31st, 2004|12:45 pm] |
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im stupid.. i hate being so freakin predictable. Every freakin concert we go to i always end up wearing the same thing. i spend like an hour trying to pick ou the perfect outfit and in the end i always chose the same exact thing i wore to the last show. i'm retarded. |
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[Jul. 30th, 2004|03:04 pm] |
LAST PERSON WHO...
x. Slept in your bed: lauren.. hah thats only my dream =)
x. Saw you cry: my mom
x. Made you cry: my mom.. yeah i kno im cool
x. You shared a drink with: my sister. yes INCEST!!!
x. You went to the movies with: brian<3 lauren<3 hehehe, tracy and sum guy mike.
x. You went to the mall with: the girls
x. Sent you an email: i dont think i get those?
HAVE YOU EVER...
x. Said "I Love You" and meant it: uh huh.. once
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: well i went a bit crazy when she ate my sandals i only had them like 3 days and then she go to them.. that bitch.
x. Been to California: no but its like my dream
x. Been to Hawaii: last sunday.... of course
x. Been to Mexico: thats where i was born. can u not see the mexican in me?
x. Been to China: i own that place.
x. Been to Canada: i invaded it
x. Danced naked: going into the shower. o and i did a private party last weekend =P
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?: no. that would be not cool. its weird most of my dreams involve snakes.
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: yeah only so i could DO myself.
x. Had an imaginary friend: well i had a stuffed toy named becky../i swear she could talk
x. Do you have a crush on someone: yeah.. and he knows it
x. What book are you reading now: the natural
x. Worst feeling in the world: heartache/pain/burn
x. Future son's name: anything with a y. maybe nyck.. cuz im cool like that
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no not yet
x. What's under your bed: sex toys. haha jk.. actually nothing.
x. Favourite sport to watch: croquet
x. Siblings: allysa, krista, and jenna
x. Location: my casa
x. College plans: \california... upstate or connecticut
x. Piercings/tattoos: tatoos everywhere( its insane) piercing:my nipples
x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Not right now.
EXTRA STUFF
x. Do you do drugs: no ( in spansih)
x. Do you drink: nope
x. Who is your best friend: can't chose so i'm gonna go with... pedro
x. What are you most scared of: dying
x. What clothes do you sleep in: a shirt and some pants?
x. Where do you want to get married: a farm
x. Who do you really hate: uhh.. idk
x. Been in Love: maybe.. i think so
x. Do you drive: all the time
x. Do you have a job: party fun is the sex
x. Do you like being around people: I LIKE PEOPLE
x. Are you for world peace: no never
STUFF
x. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: yeah. life sucks. i'll deal
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: uh huh. the whole "cheating" thing.. crap ass fucker
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: i like guys that have the hair. and are sorta into the same music. theres no general type.
x. Are you lonely right now: im not sure... trcik question right there
x. Song thats stuck in your head a lot: gavin degraw-i don't wanna be.... can we say one tree hill is the sex
x. Do you want to get married: yeah eventually
x. Do you want kids: i've always wanted like 6 kids.. so guys.. be ready
FAVOURITE
x. Room in house: bathroom. hehe jk
x. Type(s) of music: rock.. emo/screamo... im into alot of stuff
x. Band(s): hawthorne heights/bno/ underOATH
x. Colour: pink and green
x. Perfume or cologne:blue.. by ralph lauren
x. Month: july.. thats when my birfday is
IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
x. Cried: nope
x. Bought something: yeah some yogurt and gum
x. Gotten sick: nope
x. Sang: o yea.. i was singing im too sexy for my shirt too sexy for my pants
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: nope
x. Met someone new: yep
x. Missed someone: slightly
x. Hugged someone: yes'm
x. Kissed someone: on the cheek if that counts |
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[Jul. 30th, 2004|11:43 am] |
tina u fat lard. come eat some ham.
napoleon dynamite= the best freakin movie ever created |
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[Jul. 30th, 2004|10:55 am] |
ok so yeah. haven't updated this baby in a while. i guess it just takes too much effort especially for a gilr as oh so popular as me.
so yeah. wow. summers almost over which sucks alot of anus. i mean school isn't THAT bad. wait wtf am i talking about..i wish summer was 5 million times longer. not much has happened over summer break. i work every freakin day.. yeah i make money its cool but she can kiss my ass. honestly she called me the other day... told me i had no plans for friday and told me to stay at the store from 11-6. stupid iran lady. also.. she doesnt callme stephanie.. she calls me estephan. no. no. never. im not a man. and she calls the dumspter... the dumper. haha. one smart woman right there.
i have to say one of the best thinsg that happened this summer was meeting the guys. sure theres only three of them but honestly its better than the what we had. there all pretty cool. and its weird i feel like i've known them all for awhile. it just sucks because two of them live like and hour away from us. which means... no fun. o well.. its cool, they're awesome people. kyle is planning a porno. what else can we say.
last night i went to the movies with tracy, lauren, sum guy mike, and brian <3.i guess it went pretty well. brians an awesome guy. i guess it was just awkward maybe. well it's cool. whatever happens happens. i kno what i personally want to happen. but not everything goes the way i want it to. it's cool.
tomorrow we're goin to the stars hide fire show with kyle. yay. its gonna be awesome. the only problem is we don't exactly have the whole rides thing figured out.
today i'll probably be at ceeg's for the entire day. i love her house. nothings more fun. especially getting sexually assaulted by her brothers. haha
farewell all. thats all i hafta say
<3 i want u more than u know |
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[Jul. 15th, 2004|11:00 pm] |
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all i want is to be labeled as yours |
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[Jul. 13th, 2004|10:21 pm] |
summer was not supposed to be this dull and depressing. whne i think of summer i think beach, fun times, GUYS. this time it's not happening. wait it never ever ever happened to begin with. it sorta sucks. yeah my friends tell me to stop complaingin because at least i get guys... but seriously look at the guys i've dated. some of them have either broke my heart or "molested" me. which WASN"T fun. Honestly i just wish there were guys who were decent looking.. they really don't hafta be hott i'm not conceited like that.. looks mean nothing in the end. i just want to find a group of guys who like having fun. i wish there were guys at this age who's thoughts didn't always include sex. i think in my small stupid head, a guy that i really am into should have the respect to wait til i'm ready.
the only good thing about today was seeing spider man 2,a dn buying stuff for my room downstairs. that movie was freakin awesome. i don't care what anyone thinks toby mcguire is sexy. i was wuite pleased with the very good looking guys at bed bath and beyond today. actually i almost walked into one with my shopping cart. it was cool tho, he just laughed. i bought a clock. and old fashioned kind, its a cat with rolling eyes and a wagging tail. how freakin cool am i? my mom said on my birthday which happens to be friday.. we will sponge paint my room pink. and then when i'm done with that i can buy black cds in purple and green and border them around the ceiling edge. i will definetly have the sexciest room ever created when i'm done. i promise.
you kno u do
u kill me well
u like it too
and i can tell
you never stop until
my final breath is gone - hawthorne heights |
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[Jul. 10th, 2004|06:19 pm] |
well i think it's time for an update. life has been pretty sexy lately. i'm gonna hafta say i really love the world. last nite was the calvary show. every show i go to is a huge highlight of my life. what should u expect? my life isn't really thats interesting. despite what some mite think and my insanely popular ways.
i definetley felt really cool going as close to the stage as i could when blind culture came on. i even brought my camera. i couldn't resist all three of them are pretty fineeee. so i sound ghetto yet? PLEASE!!!??!! so yeah it was like 10:30 and we went outside because i thought i was gonna pass out from heat stroke and alyssa was obsessed with trying to find greg. that boy is quite strange but he's cool. I gave him my headband to wear around his face like a bandit. yes good choice of vocabulary right there.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
my birthday is in 6 days. i want ________________________________ |
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[Jun. 29th, 2004|02:20 pm] |
i'm gonna have my birthday party at party fun i think. how awesome is that. i work there. i think i'd wanna do color a cookie because how coool is coloring a cookie with edible flavored markers?1?! yeah i kno i'm awesome. if ur special u'll be invited.
my eye is infected and it hurts. |
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